Stayed at ahmiu's house! ^^

Haven't been so relaxed for very long liao. But why does time passed so fast when i enjoy? ): Haiz. ZZZ.

Well, there's work tmr! ): I'll strive on!!! Then earn money liao...will go shop & enjoy! Hmm, that's the only goal to drive me on.

Jy vionnaliau! :D

i

am

giving

up!

Super extreme tried!

Don't know what's wrong with me. I'm super bored with life now! ): I really dislike working X100. Today saw sinsin, fiona and siewxing. I was like...really really miss them ); Haven't thought that this year's holidays would be rather boring. HAIZ.

&&& , i'm really loosing tons and millions of things that are imp to me. )': Life's really unfair! I always always feel that i'm contented with the things i desire but the next moment these things that i desire will be lost. It somehow disappeared from my life without me knowing and i really hate it. Worst is i can't do anything about it. I've tried , really! Nothing seemed to work right now. I don't want it this way. ):

Upset lah.

I've nv been feeling so weird before. I guess everything is moving on too fast for me. IHATEIT!

Out of a sudden, i wished everything was back from the start....the very begining.

Could you just tell me why before you want to abandon me please? ):

Though i always link cupcakes with sadness, i still love it (; How ironical .

Super long didn't update blog alr. I'm busy.):

I'm really tired! It's just the second day of my job, i feel like i'm dying. It's really hard to get use to this job. & seemed like i dont really enjoy. But I will hang on cause it took me much time to rmb some stuffs, i cant just give up like that. It's super no life. haha.

Recently, i just have this weird feeling that i'm gonna loose something which is really important to me ): I really don't feel right! Whatever i do, how hard i try...there isn't seemed to have any diff. But why is that so? )): I'm not only physically tired but emotionally tired too.

If one day, i've decided to give up...i will not turn back anymore.

Burying you deep deep deep inside soon. I don't wanna care , don't wanna feel anymore.

I'm still alone.

Went for pepperlunch interview today...guessed what? I'm hired! WAHAHA. Happy x1000 ^^

Thanks for theng who refer me to the job. (: Hope this job won't tire me too much! Happyhappy.

I'm now back home. Heart was especially heavy tonight. It's the feeling of moody, upset which makes me feel like crying.

Didn't know baking was hard. Didn't know baking needs much effort. Didn't know baking for someone was so great.

Now,

I know trying so hard , putting in so much effort , baking for someone who don't even bothers is totally a waste.

I'm silly, dumb, retarded for doing all these redundant acts. This feeling was totally awful, just felt that i might break down right now. Running all the way to the cake shop hoping that the shop won't close before i reach. Baking till 4 plus am hoping to bake the cupcakes out before the great day. Smiling foolishly at the cupcakes after it's done. That was what tht foolish girl had did. Thanks to her stupid brain.

Thanks to her willingness to ignore having puffy eyes.

I guessed she learnt her lesson...she will never ever put in her heart & soul for this person anymore(:

It was unfair cause that person don't know. However, there's no much diff even if that person knows.

Let's just drift apart & get on with our own life. I'm tired, really.

& no more frenchfries left. Leftovers are just oysters.

):

Sometimes i wished my life was really packed with meaningful events. I felt that nothing makes me feel contented. ): During the o's, i wished that it would just end soon...but after the o's, i felt that life is just plain and boring. ):

ZZZ

Get well soon ! ily.