HI, what would you do if you miss somebody so badly? ):

30 mins to x'mas. Santa, i wish wish wish days would be back to those days when i enjoyed myself the most. Grant me that & i'll be contented (:

Merry merry x'mas :D

Are you happy?

It's only a matter a time. Definitely.






Misses, ):

HAIS.

Promising myself to stay happy.

I feel weak, blank & restless.

Yes, i shall really let go.

Nothing is true from the very ultimate start.

I felt like a fool now.

SUCKS.

I'm dead tired.

Stayed at ahmiu's house! ^^

Haven't been so relaxed for very long liao. But why does time passed so fast when i enjoy? ): Haiz. ZZZ.

Well, there's work tmr! ): I'll strive on!!! Then earn money liao...will go shop & enjoy! Hmm, that's the only goal to drive me on.

Jy vionnaliau! :D

i

am

giving

up!

Super extreme tried!

Don't know what's wrong with me. I'm super bored with life now! ): I really dislike working X100. Today saw sinsin, fiona and siewxing. I was like...really really miss them ); Haven't thought that this year's holidays would be rather boring. HAIZ.

&&& , i'm really loosing tons and millions of things that are imp to me. )': Life's really unfair! I always always feel that i'm contented with the things i desire but the next moment these things that i desire will be lost. It somehow disappeared from my life without me knowing and i really hate it. Worst is i can't do anything about it. I've tried , really! Nothing seemed to work right now. I don't want it this way. ):

Upset lah.

I've nv been feeling so weird before. I guess everything is moving on too fast for me. IHATEIT!

Out of a sudden, i wished everything was back from the start....the very begining.

Could you just tell me why before you want to abandon me please? ):

Though i always link cupcakes with sadness, i still love it (; How ironical .

Super long didn't update blog alr. I'm busy.):

I'm really tired! It's just the second day of my job, i feel like i'm dying. It's really hard to get use to this job. & seemed like i dont really enjoy. But I will hang on cause it took me much time to rmb some stuffs, i cant just give up like that. It's super no life. haha.

Recently, i just have this weird feeling that i'm gonna loose something which is really important to me ): I really don't feel right! Whatever i do, how hard i try...there isn't seemed to have any diff. But why is that so? )): I'm not only physically tired but emotionally tired too.

If one day, i've decided to give up...i will not turn back anymore.

Burying you deep deep deep inside soon. I don't wanna care , don't wanna feel anymore.

I'm still alone.

Went for pepperlunch interview today...guessed what? I'm hired! WAHAHA. Happy x1000 ^^

Thanks for theng who refer me to the job. (: Hope this job won't tire me too much! Happyhappy.

I'm now back home. Heart was especially heavy tonight. It's the feeling of moody, upset which makes me feel like crying.

Didn't know baking was hard. Didn't know baking needs much effort. Didn't know baking for someone was so great.

Now,

I know trying so hard , putting in so much effort , baking for someone who don't even bothers is totally a waste.

I'm silly, dumb, retarded for doing all these redundant acts. This feeling was totally awful, just felt that i might break down right now. Running all the way to the cake shop hoping that the shop won't close before i reach. Baking till 4 plus am hoping to bake the cupcakes out before the great day. Smiling foolishly at the cupcakes after it's done. That was what tht foolish girl had did. Thanks to her stupid brain.

Thanks to her willingness to ignore having puffy eyes.

I guessed she learnt her lesson...she will never ever put in her heart & soul for this person anymore(:

It was unfair cause that person don't know. However, there's no much diff even if that person knows.

Let's just drift apart & get on with our own life. I'm tired, really.

& no more frenchfries left. Leftovers are just oysters.

):

Sometimes i wished my life was really packed with meaningful events. I felt that nothing makes me feel contented. ): During the o's, i wished that it would just end soon...but after the o's, i felt that life is just plain and boring. ):

ZZZ

Get well soon ! ily.

I'm officially 16.

It's really awesome to have my clique of friends who had planned suprises and celebrate my birthday with me. I'm really touched but didn't know how to show my appreciation out. I really wanna thank all of them (:

THANK YOU! LOVES.

我只好假装 我已不爱了
催眠自己我们不适合
我放开你了 我已不爱了

busy busy busy.

Counting down. 30 more pathetic days,

What a disturbing feeling...

Ohmy, i am starting to slack much more. zzz

Realised that night time is really hard to pass when i'm alone. Either i cant sleep or busy thinking of nonsensical things.

Maybe sometimes after doing some random acts, i may find out something new and it may help me to move on faster?

I am suffocating again. It's not very pleasant this time ):

& 2 more months!

I love to sleep till noon. (:

I had not change , have you?

I'm not tired , are you?
I'm not giving up , are you?

Maybe i had already missed everything or is it fate?

Just hate the way you treated me.

Was not in a good mood but nobody sees it. [ Luckily ]

You know human hearts are just like glasses , it's really fragile. Maybe your words may just hurt somebody tens times deeper as much as you had thought. Just felt that i am really those who speaks what i'm thinking. Seriously. Close ones, if i knew they can take it, i just speak freely. BUT, sometimes, i overlooked lots of things...

Maybe life is just like that. Nobody is perfect. Nobody can please anybody forever and suit to one's lifestyle and all forever.

My pace of life is fast, i can't stop down and ponder upon things that can't be changed. Maybe, time can let everything that matters alot rest.

I just decided to continued to go on. Drive on. Work on. Strive on. Till the very last.

Hang on.

My english teacher inspired me. (:

In life there's always two choices.

Now, I have two choices, it's either to be happy or to not to be happy.

I had choose to be happy and it will continue to stay this way...(:

Just realized i wasn't able to expressed my feelings out in this blog. I only wished to keep everything to myself.

Mummy say that i am very dumb cause i always stick to my close ones but in return they only approach me when they are really alone and nobody to hang out with.True True. I find it true. Frankly speaking, it hurts me and affected my feelings quite a lot.

Maybe sometimes i'm really too stupid?

Anyway, theng should be having this same feeling as me bah.

Hais.

I gonna change for the better, i don't need you to accompany me anymore. I do not want mummy to have this kind of mentality cause it hurts so much.

And i want to be stronger, i don't want people to find me weak in terms of everything.

P/S : Don't ask me anything about this post. Cause i don't want to confront, i don't want to approach, i don't want to speak all these out, that's why i choose to write here. If you choose to ask me or approach me instead regarding this issue, it really defeats my purpose. I do not write this for anybody to see, i just want to write down my feelings...

-Sometimes, laughers, a wide smile does not really connect with one's feeling. It's just a great way to hide one's feeling and let other's know that one is really fine when they are aren't.

Back to the days when i just joined wenyi. Everything was pretty fresh , days passed so fast, everyone seemed to changed alot. Be it males or females, i missed them alot. The times where we got tgt like a family . Chu shi or even enjoying ourselves at the chalet. Time flies too fast, i can't catch up already. I would like to sit down and rest and think of the beautiful times i have had. I still love wenyi as much as before , and it will never change.

(:

I MUST FORGET YOU

I WILL FORGET YOU
I WANT TO FORGET YOU

I DON'T WANT TO REMIND MYSELF OF YOU

iamanidiot.

H-E-L-L-O!
I'm so damn busy now. I could hardly switch on the comp to update my blog and stuffs. ): BUT, another 4 months! I have got to buck up , pull up my socks , put in my best effort and whatever. This year was such a hectic year, time had passed so fast. LOL.
I miss everything.
I miss WENYI!
I miss pool.
I miss k-box.
I miss sleeping.
Hais.

Anyway, i had found these random photo. seeee...I just hope yihan would not see it. LOL.

Loves and i will update sooon. ((:

Have you ever felt a feeling of missing somebody badly suddenly?

Sad to say, i have!

I'm missing somebody right now very badly.

):

Have you ever felt a strong force pushing you to do something and yet another force pulling back telling you not to do it?

Sad to say, i have!

Why did god give me such a complicated brain which will think of all the things nobody might have thought of?

I wonder what's wrong, i'm feeling so down suddenly. ): I'm not sure what's it...

Nothing i wished for happened...

And i don't want to be left behind alone. I don't want cause i'm scared. I don't want to live somewhere where nobody seemed to care. ):

Hello!

I'm lazy.bored.tired. I don't feel like doing anything except rotting at home. Shit. ):

RAWR!

I really hate this year alot. zzz....

Hello, =)

I'm busy with school recently. There's only one week for my june holi which falls on the third week. What a hectic year seriously, tiring. There's still a few months to go and that's it o-lev! )): It's scary, isn't it? HAHA. Anyway, i had a very entertaining 3 days to rest and play.

SEE>> Friday ( 11june ) celebrating waner's b'day! k-box and pool! waytogo!

Saturday ( 12june ) Catching a movie <> with bro and sis.

Sunday (13june ) Stay over at granny's house!! (:

Next week> maybe going pool with friends! Whoohoo.

Isimplylovesit! haha

SEEE, i bought this camera for sis-in-law!
Caught theng texting other guys on phone!!:P haha
SinSin!(:

This photo below was taken on my birthday last year. Caught them holding hands together under the dim lightings on our way home. It's fel sis and sis-in-law. (: Today , it's Aaron's birthday. I wanna wish him a happy memorable birthday! And next, many things just happened in these few days. I'm wondering, why am i getting so upset ( not fake ) when they are quarreling, when they have misunderstanding, when they felt so sad for each other when things aren't going the way they wanted. I wonder and wonder. Maybe it's because, they rely on each other alot. Maybe i could see the love in them. Even an outsider like me could feel how deep their love was for each other. I would like them to stay as one forever. I hope things will go the best for them. (: Goodluck!

P/S maybe gonna change link soon. Last time, life wasn't happy for me. Was caught in lots of love stuffs that trapped me. LOL. That's why my blog link was melancholic which means nothing but sad and -v which was vionna (me) . But now, life's too busy for me to think of all these stuffs. I have my goal to work towards to! No time to think of all these lame stuffs. haha. (((:

Was about to type, tune in to my blog soon but i doubt anybody reads my blog. :/ haha,

But it's okay, i type and i read on my own! lol.

loves.

OKAY! I'm posting today. IF i don't post, my blog will really really be dead! )): SEEE. I have some photoeys! They are so memorable and was taken quite some time ago. lala, enjoy!!! Anyway, there's still more to go but i've lost my cam's memory card... I shall go find it sooon!^^

LOVE ALL THESE PHOTOS!

Theng says i looked like an auntie! LOL. )):

I guess love is difficult.

One of the suckiest and most frustrating facts of life is that sometimes relationships just end, often without reason. I truly believe that some times both men and women simply run out of love, even when there was a lot of it in the beginning.

You can love your friends... You can love your family... You can even love every stray dog or stray drummer that crosses your path. HOWEVER, you have to learn how to love yourself, like yourself, and put yourself first before you will ever find the healthy, loving, and lasting realtionship that you've been looking for.

Out of a sudden. I felt a bit of sadness , a bit of unhappy and a bit of weird. Something is bothering me but i don't know what it is. Is it tomorrow's MYE results? I guess maybe 10 percent Or Is it that i lost a lot of things that can't be taken back again? I guess maybe 50 percent Or is it because i really have no confidence in myself for everything i do now? I guess it 's the left over 40 percent

I felt happy that i am once happy.

I felt elated that i had once enjoyed that moment.

I felt wasted that that moment it gone with time.

I felt upset, everything is gone.

Maybe, i haven't change at all. Everything in my heart is still the same. It didn't disappear out of a sudden. It was just buried deep down. It was just neutralized with the time. But now everything suddenly pours out, and my mood starts to swing again.

HELLO!

Life is great cause mid-year exams had just ended. (: Wonder how much white strands of hair have been grown out. -HAHA.
I have not been blogging for years. ): no time and also a bit of laziness. laughs. Anyway, nobody reads my blog so it doesn't matter much.

I guess i've grown up. Emotionally , physically! I've looked across some things that seemed rather childish now. haha.
Studying, I'm still a nerd who studies at home. ))): Sad. NO time to play around or slack or do those things which i love. Actually, i kind of hate this kind of lifestlye, it's driving me mad seriously. BUt no choice life is like that. I have to live with it. BOO-HOO.

NO photos, blogger's fault not mine .LOL.

Hello!!
Yesterday went to ldp. Abit boring cause it seemed like the girls have got nothing to do. ZZZ. )): But at least i got to hear theng's troubles. [CHEERUP, and heal soooon!!!!!!!]

Anyway, i'm gonna let this be a short post due to time contraint. )):

Well, we must learnt to move on fast. Don't let the past, you know, hold on to you and unable you to move on. Past is already the past. You can't turn them back. Once the love is gone, it's gone forever. If he is true to you, in the first place, such things which sort of disgusted me won't happen at all. But it happened, not even with that bit of guilt. Should you try looking beyond his perfections? They are actually lots of loope holes here any there. It's ugly. Esp that wicked heart. Esp that embarassing height. HAHA. ( NO offence ). It's saddening to see a sad face , a person holding back her tears for someone who don't worth them. I wish you all the best. SMILE! >>>> :D , :) , :D , :)

Gottogo.